Im Smiling Deep Inside
I went to LA Music Academy (LAMA) to have a short tour of the school and do a live evaluation. I sat in the jazz/improvisation class and i absolutely LOVED it. The next class I saw was the Vocology class, where students learn basic techniques of singing and all the things you need to know about keeping your voice healthy.
I did my live evaluation which also served as my “audition” if ever I wanted to apply for admission for the Fall 2010 quarter. I sang “Grateful” by Julianne while playing the piano. The evaluator, Kathleen told me that I had a really great voice and that I had a sharp ear. But she told me that she might not want to accept me for the upcoming quarter because there might be some medical concerns regarding my voice.
According to Kathleen, she can clearly hear that there might be something wrong with my voice, it being very husky. I always thought that since I was born with it that nothing was wrong. I’ve also gotten used to people teasing me about my low, raspy speaking voice. But then again, there actually already might be some damage there. I have to go to a throat specialist, and hopefully the doctor can fix whatever problem I have.
Normally, you’d probably be sad or scared after finding out that your voice can be the very thing that keeps you from fulfilling your dream of becoming a singer. But for me, it’s a great feeling. I’ve always wanted to have this checked because I was never content with people telling me, “you have a great voice”, “its really unique”, or “you were probably just born with that”. And now, a teacher is telling me she won’t let me enroll until she knows I’m healthy and okay - Finally, someone who agrees with me! Ha ha. Now I have a very valid reason to have this checked and to make sure that all the problems will be fixed. I may be bummed about not being able to enroll next quarter, but really, I’m smiling deep inside.
